Friday, July 19, 2013
Going crazy?
It's been an odd morning. I keep seeing men that look so similar to Chase everywhere I go. My mind has been playing tricks on me. It's Friday, so I though, oh good he will come home early we will have a nice quiet weekend maye we will be welcoming our new little boy. It's been an odd morning. I keep thinking about things that are not even possibilities. I keep thinking he will show up. That I will see him walk in the door, tht he will call. Maybe it's a way of coping with all that's happened this week but maybe I'm finally just loosing it.
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Unbelievable
My in-laws are living through Hell.
Chase's younger brother, Eric passed away July 11, 2013. Four months and one day after his older brother.
Eric was a kind-hearted man and loving father. He loved his children and enjoyed playing with his nieces and nephews. Watching him play basketball with his brothers was always entertaining and he always had something to say about everything. The first time I met him was at a Superbowl party, he had built a mock up of the Superbowl trophy and brought it with him. It was always exciting to see what he would do next.
We are all devastated by his loss... but his parents... how they are still breathing is beyond me. I really do not think that anyone should ever have to go through this Hell, let alone twice in a lifetime and then twice in four months of each other! My heart breaks for them.
Chase's younger brother, Eric passed away July 11, 2013. Four months and one day after his older brother.
Eric was a kind-hearted man and loving father. He loved his children and enjoyed playing with his nieces and nephews. Watching him play basketball with his brothers was always entertaining and he always had something to say about everything. The first time I met him was at a Superbowl party, he had built a mock up of the Superbowl trophy and brought it with him. It was always exciting to see what he would do next.
We are all devastated by his loss... but his parents... how they are still breathing is beyond me. I really do not think that anyone should ever have to go through this Hell, let alone twice in a lifetime and then twice in four months of each other! My heart breaks for them.
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Music
I know that I have done several posts on music but its such an integral part of my life that I can't seem to shy away from it.
Again, I am going to mention Kip Moore's "Hey Pretty Girl" it seems to be heading up the charts and its on the radio so very often. I know it sounds silly but I can't help but think Chase has had something to do with that, a constant reminder of him in these recent months. I know its completely illogical but nothing about what's happened these last few months seems very logical.
It funny how nearly every song I hear brings a memory. Good or bad. Too many songs to count can be linked to my previous life. Even new songs.
I went for almost a month only listening to church music because the memories were just too painful, but not feeling them not connecting to the music in such a personal way was painful too.
Oh to find a happy medium.
Again, I am going to mention Kip Moore's "Hey Pretty Girl" it seems to be heading up the charts and its on the radio so very often. I know it sounds silly but I can't help but think Chase has had something to do with that, a constant reminder of him in these recent months. I know its completely illogical but nothing about what's happened these last few months seems very logical.
It funny how nearly every song I hear brings a memory. Good or bad. Too many songs to count can be linked to my previous life. Even new songs.
I went for almost a month only listening to church music because the memories were just too painful, but not feeling them not connecting to the music in such a personal way was painful too.
Oh to find a happy medium.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Remembering
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